talks.

last night andrea and i were up until 4 talking in our beds.

i slept in through greek.

:/

basically we were just discussing all thats been going down in our house that we don't know how to deal with...

sara getting married in a manner that is so lacking romance and beauty and the Lord.

nancy partying every weekend and her friends being complete gossips.

the state of the house and how difficult it is to clean the kitchen for 2 hours only to have someone come in and cook food cause they are bored... then proceed to leave dishes all over the place.

the frustration we have over sara's lack of relationship with Jesus right now and her settling in all areas.

how hard it is to come home and feel the contrast of how much fun we have with other people and how boring their lives are.... seeping in... infecting where we live.

our dreams for life, our education, the men we marry, the jobs we succeed in, the countries we travel to, the art we like, the music we enjoy...

they are just so much more developed.

we know who we are.

we acknowledge we are still growing but... we know who we are.

sara and nancy have no idea... they are still experimenting.

and it was a frustrating conversation... how do we talk to them about this...

i DONT like being home right now.

so then i slept in through greek and proceeded to get up and have my quiet time in the living room.

and God just struck me with the realization that we've become so obsessed and distracted by their lack of cleanliness that we haven't been concerned with the bigger issues.

Our battles are not of flesh and blood but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world.

i've been so preoccupied with the simple "lunch" as Screwtape would call it... that i haven't seen the salvation God wants to bring these girls.

Our Father Below has just been distracting me with this cleaning thing and allowing me to get so annoyed and worked up about it that i haven't cared one bit about the fact that

MY GOD IS POWERFUL ENOUGH TO GET SARA OUT OF THIS MESS.

MY GOD IS JUST AND RIGHTEOUS ENOUGH TO HELP NANCY OUT WITH HER MONEY.

they aren't too far gone into their dark pits of being for Jesus to reach down and pull them out.

God give me the peace, gentleness, serenity and love to ENJOY these girls and to pray for them earnestly.... seeking what YOUR best for them would be.

and let them know that this is how i feel about them.